helpless

Thousand of words keep on running through my mind since yesterday you told me that case. actually now I'm thinking should i write this on my blog. i really afraid people will laugh at me because some people might think this is kinda silly. ya i admit when it comes to love stuff. i will become weak and fragile.

today is the first time in this year i woke up with no intention. my heart is very empty and i can feel it until now with no blood flowing and pumping inside. or i can say it's just like I'm living in a body with no soul. ya but i feel pain no more after i cried yesterday. tears flowing uncontrollably with no expressions on my face. you might wonder I'm a guy why should i cry and what makes me cry. i tell you a guy will never cry and if he cries that means he is really hurt. actually this is not the first time i cry but its really hurt compare to the previous. after crying i realize something, the right side of my eye shed more tears than my left eye does..

i really afraid every few days various kind of problems keep on coming to me. the obstacles its getting bigger and bigger..just like a rolling snowball..

i can do everything to improve myself, my studies..everything. but if it worsen, I'm destroyed.

我只是一个乳臭未干, 入世未深的黄毛小子。我能给你什么？