I.L.Y.A.I.M.I

i wonder happy moment will ever last?
i dare not to say forever but i hope it will.
i will accept it no matter how is the ending.
i really do appreciate everything now.
i even pray hard for it.

wee hour

it's 2.18am in the morning, i'm still awake in front of my computer. blog hopping is what i'm doing now. sometimes there are possibilities for me find out those familiar faces who i lost contacted long time ago. also, those who i know them but they don't know me. didn't think of knowing them and recontact with them. just view and read after that click the X. without leaving footprints too. is this a good ethic for a blogger? =X

i do enjoy reading those bombastic blogs, what i mean is those who can write in superb english. maybe i feel like this is one of the way to improve my grammar and vocab. please pardon my grammar, i know i'm not really up to the standard. write in clear and simple sentence will do.

just checked the calendar and realized my birthday is coming in 2weeks time. before this one of my friends had read my previous blog and asked what happen to me recently. and ask me to be happy since my birthday is coming. i took this reason and requested a specific present from her. this is the first time i do so because i suddenly feel like having it. you might think that it must be an expensive gift. nope it's not. 2-3bucks i think can get it already. and yea you are right, i don't care how do i celebrate my birthday. most importantly i want myself to be happy, not on that day but is start from now. =]

oh it's 2.57am now. better off to my bed and have some sleep. sweet dreams to me~

helpless

Thousand of words keep on running through my mind since yesterday you told me that case. actually now I'm thinking should i write this on my blog. i really afraid people will laugh at me because some people might think this is kinda silly. ya i admit when it comes to love stuff. i will become weak and fragile.

today is the first time in this year i woke up with no intention. my heart is very empty and i can feel it until now with no blood flowing and pumping inside. or i can say it's just like I'm living in a body with no soul. ya but i feel pain no more after i cried yesterday. tears flowing uncontrollably with no expressions on my face. you might wonder I'm a guy why should i cry and what makes me cry. i tell you a guy will never cry and if he cries that means he is really hurt. actually this is not the first time i cry but its really hurt compare to the previous. after crying i realize something, the right side of my eye shed more tears than my left eye does..

i really afraid every few days various kind of problems keep on coming to me. the obstacles its getting bigger and bigger..just like a rolling snowball..

i can do everything to improve myself, my studies..everything. but if it worsen, I'm destroyed.

我只是一个乳臭未干, 入世未深的黄毛小子。我能给你什么？